Sunshine Rain

I'm so sad, for her & for me
For al the things we could be,
But now can't, I'm not sure whether to hope we could actually be,
..but meeting you is still awesome, Even with all that it'll bring

Just a day, more of hours
That's the time I've spent &
Already wanna be yours,
Rather want you to be mine,
To know you more, than I wanna know wine
to spend time with you &
that's where it gets sort of sad

I don't know you, have no idea if there's already someone in your life,
The little I know makes it had to believe you would lack someone who would be ready to die,

For you,
Are awesome, the sweetest girl ..I knew that the 1st time you waved at me, really liked that
Are friendly, you befriended me ..spoke to me like you'd known me all along.
Are caring, you listened to me ..probably more than I listened back, hope next time I'll give you that.
Finally loved your beautiful eyes ..couldn't stop staring, loved the look in your eye as you looked back
..I could go on & on but lemmi 1st know you more so I can speak on facts   

So I'm sad for her coz I saw her post
& sad for me coz I'm not sure I could draw any close,
To her coz now I know she has someone in her heart, someone she loves the most,
Its gonna be really had to pull back, I think I must..

Un - usual

So finally fate brought me to meet her again,
its funny how this time things were different, I was tense

I walked into my usual lunch place,
Made my order, my usual one they didn't have to check,
Unfortunately I don't have a usual spot, mainly coz the place is usually packed!
It was lunch time but I didn't know her usual time,
Whether this was her usual place or we just met coz she decided to do an unusual thing
..I still couldn't stop my mind from thinking that an unusual would happen & after all this time I'd meet her again!

..leo there seemed to be alot of potential coz as I walked in I saw some of her mates..
..I just did my thing, ate my lunch.
Then I couldn't believe who just walked by, fate?!
Kept my eyes on my plate had no idea how to react to that, so I actually wanted her to order take away, I needed all that tension taken away

..I kept cool, my eyes on my phone, right hand on the spoon
..her friend brings her food & sits on a table right across me
then she shows up & sits right opposite me..
& now there's no way she couldn't see me..
If I raised my eyes & looked across, around 2 o'clock I'd be looking right into her face,
I wanted to see her again I was sure face to face, so it didn't make sense that now I didn't even have the courage to look at her face..
I definitely couldn't move place but I didn't know what I'd say to her, had no idea how I would have reacted..
Thought I was over her, I was never even with her ..ok, so I was definitely into her!
Won't even try to deny that..
But she was a whole table across,
I wanted to say hi, but unless I could pose..
..time, turn her head to me then just happened to look up as she seemed to stair at me, I would have had to wave continuously till she noticed me waving at her (without looking weird?@3%&), I was already feeling weird so the later option was a jamais .. plus there was no way to know she wasn't playing my cards, ensuring she's never cought looking up to her 2 o'clock (..if she was I would have waved till all but she noticed!)     

That's how leo was..

I finally managed to say hi to her, & yes she said hi back
..after that I continued with my food, yeah just like that,
..as she left she stoped close by, said hi.. we had a little chat,
Then she had to rush, that was that!

When will I see her again, I'm not sure ..don't know if to hope soon!*&%$#