Amazing chance..

Given that you're so much like me,
I can't help but think you understand me like this,
Seing the expressions on your face wish you could see me now,
I know I make such faces, more unconscious when I'm cought in such instances, like when someone is embarrassing themselves ';-! 
When you don't have the words to say, what would give a certain sound,
Priceless face to me, if my eyes were a camera I'd take so many shots,
All perfect to me, they are ..now they're precious thoughts.
Remember that day when we met your friend, then as he said hi he forgot to see me,
There came that face, no words from your mouth but you were apologizing for him,
I could tell by your face ..it expressed everything:)

So I'm really trying but my weaknesses are making it hard for me,
I thank God I know you, what I know tells me u're understanding,
Really hope I won't mess up, I'll find a way to get to you,
I really hope I won't fail, if I do I pray u'll understand me,
Please Lord help me know how to get to her, help me get to know her,
I like her too much I'm scared I may try so hard to impress her..
Why I'm scared is coz in doing that I may loose the little I have with her,
In doing that I may turn to someone else & loose the chance to get to know this girl that I really really treasure..     

Agony of unknown

"Job  23:13 But he is in one mind, and who can turn him?
and what his soul desireth, even that he doeth. 
23:14 For he performeth the thing that is appointed for me:
and many such things are with him. 
23:15 Therefore am I troubled at his presence:
when I consider, I am afraid of him.
23:16 For God maketh my heart soft, and the Almighty troubleth me:
23:17 Because I was not cut off before the darkness,
neither hath he covered the darkness from my face."

..I can't compare myself to him, can I? No its not good to compare anyways but sometimes I feel exactly what he must have when he expressed himself that way.
Without any control even over his own life, I've always known that maybe that's why I find it had to understand His need to insist on showing me ..well, maybe it's usually just a reminder. I thank God I know his story so it's clear it's not Him causing all this, but why is he allowing it.. again I thank God for the answer to that is also very clear to me:) yet although comforted that same question still lingers in my mind.
Wouldn't there be a better way, easier for me atleast to learn the lesson expected of me ..but again maybe this is it, I got the best deal & don't know about it only because I haven't seen everything on the table.
Thank you Lord for your mercies & grace, (I thought this would sound sarcastic?! ..just wanted to make it clear it isn't, just in case!)
I am really greatfull because despite all I believe my God is always good, don't get ideas.. We both know that's the only way you could get me (if you don't, I must have really over estimated you but I doubt that!) but I doubt that could ever happen, (I have to say though I'm always intrigued by your determination how you keep trying ..I admire that;!) my God will always be good ..I really doubt anything could ever lead me to believe otherwise!
     

Uhm..

So there's this girl, who I actually know & love..
trust me this is not a crush nor is it love at 1st glance!
It was never love at 1st site coz when I met her I never thought we would ever be this tight,
I've grown to love her.. as I've known her, as I've been with her,
She's really influenced me as I've influenced her,
She's met my friends, I've met her friends.. my friends are hers!
I'm not closing my eyes to that, its just that I've probably not had a chance!
..I've met them it's just that I expected more coz she's super awesome its had to believe there are not (more#)
I've met her family, I felt so proud when she invited me over everyone else

..but for more reason I still wanna feel that I'm more
I wanna be sure I'm the one she adores
..maybe then when I see her with the rest I won't have a reason to feel sour
I'll be content coz I'll know we have more..
   

Expression..

Seeking desperately an engaging conversation,
Someone to talk to, something to relate with,
Its like I was made for this, I love listening to people express themselves,
Seing, listening &, or reading the unseived, unfiltered expressions ..feeling the emotions!
It always feels like a deep breath ..like fresh air!
Seing humanity at its purest, people who seem as hard as rocks crying, those who seem overly happy, the contented ..everyone unmasked!
That to me is beauty, purity..
What I crave for, knowing what's going through our different minds, not for anything else but to appreciate our differences, our creators awesomeness..
How there are similarities in our differences ..the differences in our similarities