Tuesday 22 October 2013

When I close my eyes

[When i close my eyes it's her I see,
Her & me walking on my eyeballs,
I can see her so clearly with my eyes closed,
How is it possible seing myself in my eyeballs]

She's the girl of my dreams,
But this time she's real,
So is all that I feel,
But I have no idea what she'll make of it
What she thinks, if she feels me

Everytime I see ua face,
in my dreams & imagination,
All I wanna do is make u mine,
So I'm asking would u mind
..being mine, could you give me a little while,
So I can show you what I'm like
Please lets share this time
Today for a little while then we'll decide, if we can get by

I'm looking for somebody I can talk to,
Girl I'm looking for somebody I can share my life with
I'm looking for somebody I can live with,
Somebody I who will share all with me,
Not that I need it, just that that's how secure she'll be..
 

Wednesday 9 October 2013

Now I know her name!

Found this some weeks back, I wrote it way back in high school.. it literally took me back in time!

"I stood there really tense, thinking of her,
I was decided this time so I stretched out my arm..
My heart beat fast, it beat really fast..
Then as she turned, it just froze up.. I didn't like that!
I don't know how but I asked her what her name was,
..she looked at me smiled & said something,
I couldn't hear her well but she'd definitely said something..
So I leaned closer to hear what she'd said..
She whispered to my ear, yes she said something,

..I almost melt down at the sound of her voice, her really pretty voice, her angels voice..
I smiled back, she blushed away.. no idea if I scored but now I know her name:)"    

Monday 7 October 2013

Still won't write off..

So many desires, so much passion,
Limited by circumstances, still won't write off,
Am I naive, can't I see how impossible everything seems!?
Maybe I am coz I choose to see what I want to see.. I choose to believe
..to me it's real, all I can see can be real,
All of my day dreamz, the craziest ideas I can make them live..

Am I not the the likeness of the ultimate Creator,
Was I not made in his image, commanded to continue his amazing works!?

 

The one that got away:(

I met her, got to know her & fell in love with her,
Her style, her beauty, the way she thought ..her whole being,
I was convinced it was her, the girl I'd been looking for,
The mother of our kids, the woman of my dreamz

Yeah she was real, me & her were the real deal,
Everyone saw it, we experienced it, we felt it,
Me & her made an awesome team, real chemistry 

That's why its really had to believe she's the one that got away, 
The one i made prayers for a future with,
The one who would have made it hard to breath,
..without her in the picture i had of my future,
All the plans i had mad with her, would be shuttered without her!

But I still let her leave, i couldn't stand the pain now & didn't want to imagine the same later when everything would have been much greater,
Did she really hurt me or did I do that myself?
..in my head she hurt me & I pulled back, that's where I hurt myself,

Now I have no idea how she's doing & in my head she's still the perfect one for me..
Well maybe I'm overthinking, I doubt that but I still shouldn't be waiting?!?
..for a girl whose living her life like nothing is different,
a girl who may not be affected at all with my existence or non existence?!?
Regardless I still can't stop thinking about her,
Her well being at the minimum
..sometimes I think about all we could have been.
..but I need to put an end to this, an end to this love & desire in my heart,
..to be with this girl, to have her as part of my life?!