Tommyhillfigure instead of Gucci jeans ':.

My mind is filled with the wrongest things..
I'm talking about tommyhillfugure instead of Gucci jeans?/;:'"!
Like I'm in law school but I'm more of an Einstein, geek!
..it could be that I'm just thinking about things too deep:/

Thinking about the future to far off,
But is that really wrong, what's wrong with having a thought?!
Making plans, taking turns, juggling everything round & round,
..put that way then it may not be so right, right?

If my brain is working full-time for my future then when am I gonna live today?
Thinking about my PhD when, I'm not even done with my degree,
Feel like I'm eroding too fast, I'm turning into debris..
I need to stop this, or sort it, arrange my thoughts before it gets too late, stop this debate..

Why am I thinking too much, why do I do this?
Because this is me, because that's how I do it!
..why am I talking to myself, why am I doing this?
Because I understand me, because this is how I sometimes do it..

I know.. you know :p

I know you're beautiful, every guy would gladly have you,
You left me lastfull, that's partly why I chose you,

I know they would fight for you,
Both princes and even princesses,
I know I'm lucky that you chose me,
But never remind me, remember that I too chose you.

I chose you from a crowd of many,
All fighting for you but you're not in plenty,
Some lost, others found ..I gained what was my most priced tresure,
You chose me, I am lucky, I thank God to have you, even if just to remember!

A song that could describe what I feel ':?

I'm looking for a song that could describe what I feel,
It's hard to even find words that could describe my ordeal,
Horror movies, ragging seas, crying babies,
Still can't find maybe a sound could describe better this scene,

Aaarg, ggggr, can't say bazinga of sounds kind of cool,
Dann, khh, they're still words on a paper maybe a color, blue!
..could describe better what I may be going through,
It's not funny, yet I'm laughing I should go back to my room

Boom! ..thank God its not all in my head,
How could just white on the floor cause all that tension,
Milk poured down be such a big deal,
It's real, it's real, I'm not going mad ..all this tension is real

I'd clearly finished this on the previous line,
Kpaw! ..a Chinese plate from my dad's hand, decides it's its time,
Coincidence, probably, or not, now what?
Melancholy is the reason why I took this pad, I was drowning in my thoughts,
Now what, now what?@#$%&*-+()

Not so forever.

Should I presume that you don't love me any more,
Maybe love is too strong, I mean you don't percieve me like you did?
It sounds rhetoric but I need an answer because in my mind there's a law,
You still are crowned queen, in my mind you still are the lady on the lead.

It's probably been months but to me we spoke yesterday,
The pain however feels longer than pain caused by just a day..
You've probably moved on, and me, I still relieve each day,
Each breath while with you because I don't know how to convince my mind you are gone, that it's been days, [weeks, months.. I still can't move on]

Well maybe you're not? I'm willing to live in this pain,
Because I can't dare imagine how much more it would be, forget about the gain,
..imagine being sure she's gone, forever,
Ooh, how I'd hate forever.. and I still have will to live :(!)

Why the heck did I say I'd love you forever, love is too strong :( I hate J'adore, now J'aime.

UPart

I love you, and you love me back, loved me back maybe, or am I that blonde I just assumed that FACT,
Your words if I assumed it's only that they came from your heart,
Like mine did, or from somewhere deep within your being..
Then why are we not happy together, or atleast still together,
What happenned to us, who changed the weather,
I know we hadn't said our vows yet but should it really affect us, I'm talking about the bad whether, whether it's dark or night, as long as we are together, forever..
When I'm down you pull me up, or support me be a lever, when you're down, I'll carry you, with my hands, on my back,
If we happen to be all down, we'll fight together, on the ground I will build a shelter,
for us, I can, we can never be defeated, not just because you bring me lack,
Because we were made like that, on our own we are strong, together united we're stronger.

Stonger than steel, stronger than the hippos skin which cannot be cut through even with the strongest steel

Happily [N]ever after?!

When I stop giving the story, It doesn't mean it's stopped existing, does it ':?
It's history ':? Try missing work for a day, tell me if everyone else will also be missing.
..inaction on your part doesn't stop the world from spinning, revolving round the solar system, the solar system from going round this galaxy, the milky way from going round.. the force of gravity still pulls as strong,
..so think about that as you enjoy that lunch, as you take those seeps of that sweet gravy away from work.

Happily ever after only exists because the story stops, but the story never stops,
again don't you read your history':?
Next time you decide to take a break go back in time, relieve the beauty,
Then you may waltz back, that's the only way you won't miss a thing, you have to be care full you don't get lost in time, best of luck.
There are happy moments and sad ones, if I stop at the sad will that be happily never after ':? I don't think so, unless I choose to make it so.
Now, I'm saying we can live happily ever after, being happy forever is a choice in your hands. We have contol of the most important influence on our future, THE POWER TO CHOOSE HOW TO REACT TO THE WORLDS PUSHES AND PULLS.

The choice we take will influence whether we'll live happily, never or ever after.