Dingly bells.

Night at the museum three I think, the one with Arthur. Dingly bells is the name he uses to refer to the star of the show, the night guard. He was named that after the hat the castles fool always has on, it has Dingly bells, he's the castle fool.. In this instance that's awesome, at least in Arthurs perspective, the mythic creature made out of wax, the knight. Dingly bells is just super funny even when he's not, Arthur can't help laugh.

They are just that, Dingly bells.. I don't know who I am, just that even when they are meant to annoy me they make me laugh. If I was the strong majestic knight I would have thrown them of like he did the skeleton extinct magical creature but, I still couldn't help laugh and let them have their way in restraining me. It was funny, really.. them Dingly bells.

I tried to tell them I was already decided to leave with him, he was waiting for me.. I even showed them but they still couldn't let me leave. I would have started to give them a speech of how only I could change my mind and decide to go with them but I wouldn't, but would they listen.. they wouldn't let me go and before I decided to show them I knew of my free will, that even with a gun to me I was aware it was still my choice and I had already picked, before I remembered they were still holding me I started laughing.

I can almost swear I still believed in my free will, that I still believed I could leave but they had me. Once I started laughing I realized I couldn't breathe, he must have seen it, must have been why he took a leave.. those freaking clowns, those Dingly bells, those annoying touts, why are they so funny.

You could end up going somewhere you never intended, find yourself in Mombasa while you were going to :/ Kijabe.. why do I laugh, it's not funny landing in Mombasa with a jacket, and blankets. ':| Hate that I love them :/ hate is too strong a word, they're funny. I still don't like how weak they make me!

Circles

If she's inside your box you should be aware she could as well leave, get out and into another one. You could lock her in of course, but I'd rather an empty one than a bugging noisy box whose content is so volatile I have no idea how the lead could contained it.

What am I suggesting you ask ':? Circles!!! They are round, have diameters and half that, radii!? Are you on Google +¿? I'm talking about such kinds of circles!

If your circle and her circle meet you end up in one circle, a circle for each but in this case common zones for both. The closer the circles the bigger the common zones, if they get close enough they could end up as one circle completely inside another, think of that zone!

If your friends are her friends, your places her places, if you like what she likes, you only seem doomed to be together more often than not.

Circles make the strongest structures too. Sometimes people make kids trying to achieve this.. If my kids are your kids, blablabla! Circular structures are so strong geometrically they rarely crumble inwards but by a force from within they destruct so easy.. translated this means you can't lock her in because as strong as you seem together, your strength only protects you from the outside. Think of a well ':/

So I'm not saying if you go to someone you like and build a circle around them you can live happily ever after, rather that if you find a partner who's circle can easily blend into your circle, who loves your circle.. you've hit the jackpot.

I'm saying choose that person you like whose in a circle around you, or bring the person you like into your circles. The later however, doesn't guarantee she will stay there unless she actually for real loves your circles.

The disclaimer here is people aren't bots, part of why they are special. Sometimes people radically change, so much that they change circles. It's not the normal but it does happen, the good thing is if your eyes are open you will see this coming.

Handful

..is what he said.
If they are not full then I'll have to think about things, I don't want to relieve,
I live in all times, if I'm not full time now I will live both now and then, in the past and future, I know me, believe.
So sometimes I juggle, so I don't mumble, about my hand full because I know and I'd rather that than a mind full of perspectives, possibilities.
..sometimes.

sEE

I'm not saying I'm God, I'm just asking can you really lie to God,
Can you lie to one who's omnipotent, one who sees all?
How then can you dare lie to me, when I've seen you do it, you smell of it, are coloured with it, your belongings are textured by it but I'm not saying you've done it based on only how you look, I saw you do it.
A hologram, maybe baybe but I saw..

noW

One day when you know all my stories..
Do you think I will be boring, should I start worrying':?

But that'd be lame, I'd mess the whole game ':!
Even if that would happen, and I'd turn boring ..that would be then.

Why waste now because of then, a future that is variable, one that's malleable.
Live to your fullest, love, laugh, jump, dance.. because you're able.

Enjoy life, love.. see the beauty of the earth.
Taste, breath, feel ..smell God's art.

Made of this.

Why am I sure I'm not just skipping from one impossibility to the next, to prove a point? Well, maybe I'm not..

Sure, but I am! ..it has been the one constant desire I've had since I was a child, and the one thing that I seem to be drifting further and further away from as I grow.

Of late I have however been fighting really hard for this seemingly impossible dream, that's why I'm questioning it. Am I just fighting to prove I'm not a fool, because Napoléon Bon aparté said that that's a word found only in their dictionaries.

Am I just running after the wind, what I know I can't catch? The girl I will never get to meet, is she my description of perfect.
I would have convinced myself of that if I hadn't met her, if I hadn't met my like I would have.

But I did meet that girl that wasn't even in my dreams, and I met her at the most unusual of places, in the most unusual of ways... the impossible did happen.

It was so seemingly impossible, what happened, it was easier convincing my mind it only happened in it, so it's true, pretty obvious really that every great achievement once seemed impossible.

Does it work for all? If i invent a time machine would it exists, would it still be impossible,  would it be an achievement.
That's how far away I've veered as I go further and further away from this mine desire.

They only discovered the great inventions by doing it, envisioning even the seemingly impossible at their time so I will have to keep on dreaming, to keep on being a sayer :( until I can build capacity to do. Every thing comes to being at its time, the wise King said.

Tommyhillfigure instead of Gucci jeans ':.

My mind is filled with the wrongest things..
I'm talking about tommyhillfugure instead of Gucci jeans?/;:'"!
Like I'm in law school but I'm more of an Einstein, geek!
..it could be that I'm just thinking about things too deep:/

Thinking about the future to far off,
But is that really wrong, what's wrong with having a thought?!
Making plans, taking turns, juggling everything round & round,
..put that way then it may not be so right, right?

If my brain is working full-time for my future then when am I gonna live today?
Thinking about my PhD when, I'm not even done with my degree,
Feel like I'm eroding too fast, I'm turning into debris..
I need to stop this, or sort it, arrange my thoughts before it gets too late, stop this debate..

Why am I thinking too much, why do I do this?
Because this is me, because that's how I do it!
..why am I talking to myself, why am I doing this?
Because I understand me, because this is how I sometimes do it..