Call button

So I press the call button.. my heart could be in rubles,
It is beating t t, t t, t..
It is beating t t, t t, t..

All of this coz of this chick,
All this said with the highest regards,
I fallen deeply in love,
(I feel like) With (this chick) her I can walk in rags..

Although I wouldn't dare coz I wanna give her only the best,
She's so awesome I couldn't give her anything less,
I always try to give the best to all, but she's special so I'll give her better than the rest..
 
To get her I really have to stretch,
Out of my zone, I have to really go out,
This time round my charm is not enough,
I'm dealing with a girl I have to assume can read through my laugh.. 

Texts & calls, conversations on the go,
From class to the bus, where I'm in luck I get a chance,
All I want is a dance with her, to get to know her even just a glance,

I just want to know her, but its going too slow,
So I'm scared someone might snatch her away,
This awesome girl potential mother of our child 
So I'll pray, God will definitely help me calm my mind:)

nOtE VaLs

It doesn't have to be valentines for me to get you a rose, does it? It doesn't..
Or wild lillies, green, like I believe you'd like them to be..
but let's just talk about the rose, that's how you seem to me..
Beautiful dark red, so much mystery in them.. don't even want to get started on it,
coz I may never get finished but I don't want to get stuck on reds mystery when I have you with me!"':;/?

Rouge ..like your pretty lips.
Très belle, almost like you,
You said you don't like its scent, then maybe it should aspire to have yours ':!
..its green leaves blend with its petals to give beauty so natural, Just like every part of you, giving the perfect beautiful you..
My mom once told me when left overnight in a vase with water & sugar it blossoms.. That must be why you're so sweet :!
..people say nothing's perfect, if true then the only imperfections in you are the thorns of the rose which as painful as they may prick, I'd persevere the pain just to get to have the beautiful rose..
J'aime.. j'adore vous toujour!

NightMArE

Please tell me this isn't real,
Please wake me up & tell me this isn't real,
Please wake me up babe, next to you where are the kids,
Please wake me up so I can tell you about this dream..

No, this nightmare I was in, thank God you were not there,
I love you, would love to have you everywhere with me but that, babe, you could not have bared,
I know you're tough, maybe you could but I wouldn't let you even see where I were,
I'm telling you this only coz we promised to share all that we have

It was queer & dark, like a hollow that lacks..
An end worse than the graves, it was the worst, like drenchfull thirst,
Imagine the Kalahari, the scorching sun so hot it's like you're in a pan
..without the beautiful desert features to observe, to admire, not even mirages just fire..

Thank God you woke me when you did, because with such intensity I would have died from within,
I love you boo, I only kept fighting coz I know you love me too,
Thank you for waking me up again, for being by my side,
For being in my heart, never to part ..again, I love you, I'm so thankful to God I have you.  

Job or Jonah

So am I Job or Jonah..

So righteous God's bragging with me,
hence all this attacks biting on me,
Should I give up or should I keep fighting,
Should I not tell them that I'm the cause of all this,
Should I not tell them if they throw me the ship will stop sinking,
But I'd be lying, I'd be killing me, if I wasn't him?/;:'"!

Am I still in the boat or am I already in the whales throat,
Should I stop fighting will it throw me of its sprout or would I be giving up to the devils will,
giving up heavens deal
Talk to me Lord, tell me where's my Nineveh,

If giving up is not giving into his will then I want to, to give into your will
..but I need to know who I am so that if I'm Job I will keep holding on, where am I to go, if I'm doing it all wrong,

They sometimes call me Holly Joe & I'm not saying I'm not but you know me Lord, again I need to know?/;:'"!
Is it the devil attacking me or is it you taking me back to your will, please tell me Lord because you know how tough I can fight believing I'm using your might,
I know it's sometimes stupid but you know me, how when I'm fighting with you I just never give up, how I got your back

Am I fighting you Lord, is it the reason why I'm loosing, or am I just a Job you have just allowed the devil to abuse me..
Am I Jonah Lord, please tell me & where on earth is Nineveh,
Because I would crawl there.. you know I need to go to heaven?/;

Please talk to me Lord..

Sad

I want to be alone in my place..
Alone don't even want to **e **r *a*e:/
..well, I would love to see it :?
But she'll make me smile, she has that effect on it

..I don't want to smile, I want to hide.
Be alone, talk to myself maybe.. just think,
I can't believe I'm saying this..
I want to be sad :?

It doesn't make sense, I know:/
But I want to feel this, to feel what is real,
& this is real, with all this domineering..
I can only be really happy when I deal with it.

!"':;/?

Tick rock, tick rock, that's the clock.. but today 7:30 seemed like 6:30, the sun was still out plus there was no break & the wall clock, you'll have to see that wall clock to know what I'm talking about.

The longest class ever, how I still remained attentive through it I have no idea.
Finally its over.. wait, it's now just began, the pounding of my heart in heavy thuds, so heavy my ears can hear them regardless of how far they are from it. If only I could I would go back to that never ending class & keep on learning, maybe come out with my PhD.
But I would miss her & all she has to say, I would miss her so much [even my passion for finance wouldn't keep me distracted for that long!] .. maybe I don't want to hear it. She loves me.. she loves me ___
Lord, help me.. :°|

Walk through the streets..

Thinking about you as I walk through the streets of Nairobi,
I'm smiling even more than when I'm enjoying my favorite hobby,
Singing love songs in my head ..I can't wait to go to bed & dream of you,

I have to stop this [don't really want to..],
I look like I'm mad.. talking to myself!
I'm actually talking to you but the conversation is in my head,

I'm telling you everything ..if you're reading this you may feel kind of sad for me,
Coz I'm talking to a girl in my head ..don't be coz she's real,
..is she, how can I doubt myself!"':;/?

..she is, I may have a brilliant mind but I'm not from "a brilliant mind"!
..these are brilliant lines, right?/;:'"!,

..so if your feeling sad feel sad for yourself, coz your not experiencing this,
This madness that feels so so sweet.. Love? Not lust! alot of adoration,
The simplest way to describe it is awesome ..& finally I get to experience it :&)

..that's why I don't care how I look walking down the streets with a smirk like this,
I'm happy with my smirk so just let me be :+)

NB: smirk in this case means, crazily weird smile caused by me being really happy, nothing close to this.. :)