Sad

I want to be alone in my place..
Alone don't even want to **e **r *a*e:/
..well, I would love to see it :?
But she'll make me smile, she has that effect on it

..I don't want to smile, I want to hide.
Be alone, talk to myself maybe.. just think,
I can't believe I'm saying this..
I want to be sad :?

It doesn't make sense, I know:/
But I want to feel this, to feel what is real,
& this is real, with all this domineering..
I can only be really happy when I deal with it.